Liver

If I've heard it once, I've heard it a thousand times. Terminal. Mortality. Treatment program. Aggressive. I nod along with the doctor who's giving me the same information that the last one gave me. She's doing that thing where she's trying to be comforting but knowing that she can't be. After all, what is comfort? … Continue reading Liver

Hall

Underneath the corridor where sound is buried deepA clock is ever ticking with a time that doesn't keepThe rhythm like a serenade of s and o and sThe chime it tries to offer is a chorus of distress Even high above it where the crows have gone awayThe stars become the vultures and they're hungry … Continue reading Hall

Pain

There's a tear in her eyeAnd she's saying goodbyeUsing words that I can't even hear So I've nothing to sayBecause nothing's okayAnd I know that she won't reappear And the tears that I shedAre converted to ledThen to verses that fail to explain The connection we heldBefore everything failedAs the ocean of promise went dry … Continue reading Pain

Snow

The scattering light doesn't travel as far and the windows are wearing their ageThe edge of tomorrow is sitting alone in a cold and ephemeral cageAnd here I go trying to smile againAnd pretend there's a storyOf fortune and gloryThat needs to be placed onto paper with penBut I can't even fill up a page … Continue reading Snow

Statuary

The windows wearing garments made of gossamer and iceAnd all the doors are set with hinges rusted redThe shadows seem so sorrowful, their voices full of dreadBut all the worry they convey is imprecise The banisters are broken and the world beyond is hollowAnd the silence is a sentence that I don't know how to … Continue reading Statuary

Fall

Wait for me to rest with vacant eyesStaring at oblivion the way I always dreamt I ought to doWhere colors in kaleidoscopes are whispering goodbyesTo all the things I couldn't seeBetween the emptiness in meAnd all the rainbows ground to nothing neath the heaviness of what was out of view Wait for me to see … Continue reading Fall

Disconnect

How do I followOr hope to respectWhat was worthy in meOr was lacking in theeWhen the optional feelingsWere met the ceilingsOf wanting your warmest neglect? What does it matterAnd what did it notWhen I promised the worldAs my own was unfurledBy your carrion passionYour flare and your fashionAnd everything else I forgot How do I … Continue reading Disconnect

Ending

I swallowed the numb like a knifeAnd drank from a thimble of old residueI emptied the vial of lifeAnd said all the words that were written in blueBecause you...You feel like a hole worth mending I painted my skin with a lashTo make you a garden that blossoms anewI planted the flowers in ashAnd waited … Continue reading Ending

Memorandum

Lucille has that tone that she gets when she's annoyed and she's doing that thing where she punctuates every few sentences with that hanging space before offering an almost silent sigh of exasperation. "Well," she begins saying - like she always does when she's annoyed - "we need it done sooner rather than later." I … Continue reading Memorandum

Iterations

It's 1988 and I don't remember much more about the date and time than that but I know that the world has gone from a torrent of wild emotion to one that is anything but. When I wake, I'm greeted by concerned faces and expectations that I don't understand. My head hurts and, even though … Continue reading Iterations